Work hard Carlo, work hard.

Regret and Regret

You know, I thought I was at the lowest point of depression many times in the past 5 years of my life. The most notable one being when I broke up with Jeanne approximately 4 years ago, that was when I felt the most unstable and lost emotionally. It was at about this same time I started fucking up my school work. I failed a lot of courses and got suspended for a year from university. But I took it as a chance to prove myself and started to pick up my social and school life and started dating Julia. Things were hanging by a thread but I was content. Regrettably, being content is not good enough. Now I've been kicked out of school and no longer with Julia after 3 years of dating. I'll tell you, THIS IS the lowest point in my life. My self confidence is through the ground, I've shunned my friends, my parents, basically a miserably hollowed soul. I don't know if I have the strength to proceed, I keep telling myself things will pull through and the dark clouds will clear as long as I keep moving forward, but its incredibly hard to get out of this hole I've dug myself in. I probably won't read this post in a long while. I hate myself for being so cowardly, lazy, useless, unmanly. I hate myself. I regret so much in these past five years. How do I make up for five years of my life?

To the Head of Student Affairs:

April 15, 2008

To the Head of Student Affairs:

It has been a whole year since I was suspended from the Architecture program which has given me time to reflect upon myself and my role as an architecture student at Ryerson. I spent a lot of time trying to justify my academic failure, my clouded mind attaching itself to whatever relevant events it could to place the blame on. I was frustrated with myself to the point it kept me up at night with a restless roaming mind. I was lost and confused, and took advices from fellow students and Professor Leshchyshyn at face value. Looking back at that brief moment of the chaotic mess that was myself, I realized how stupid and wrong I was.

Over the course of the ensuing summer and school term, I slowly came to a point of an unfolding self realization. I looked back at my life and did not see much that I could proudly point out as a significant milestone in my life’s journey. It seemed as if I was living life in a trance, doing what I had to do to get by and not much else. It was as if I was a zombie who had wandered down this path without a mind to the meaning of my own actions and consequences.

In the past year, I have doubted myself in choosing this road and have seriously questioned myself if this was the right path for me. I explored other alternatives in my other interests, relevant and irrelevant to architecture. I looked into the career paths of interior design, architectural technologist, industrial design, sociology and graphical design. I attended an open house at the International Academy of Design & Technology for Architectural Technologist where I learned about the Ontario Association of Certified Engineering Technicians and Technologist and similar career paths. It opened my eyes to an industry that I thought was just about architects who designed and engineers who calculated. I did not want to waste another year in my life, and upon further research, I found some courses on the Ontario Building Code on the Ontario Building Code Officials website and signed up for a few. Taking this step helped me understand the building industry greatly as the instructors were experienced building officials and fellow classmates where all from related fields. At the same I was also learning the in’s and out’s of the Building Code, a vital asset I hope to utilize in my job search this summer to gain experience in the field. I passed my Designer Legal Building Code examination on January 23^rd 2008 along with successfully completing the Building Envelope, Building Health & Safety and Building Structural courses. I intend to take Part 9: HVAC & Fire Protection this summer to complete my advance standing for the House qualification. Although each night course was taken at a classroom environment at George Brown and Seneca, it was in no way a substitute for the engagement and interaction involved with students and professors alike in the full-course load program at Ryerson.

I visited the Ryerson Library and looked into other architects. After browsing the collection on multiple accounts, I became particularly interested in Japanese architecture. Their style caught my attention and I did some research on the internationally famous Japanese architects Tadao Ando and Toyo Ito. Feeling inspired, I picked up my pencil and started drawing sketches of some of their work. When I was finished with the last book of Ito, I had a desire to draw more. The more I drew, the more I liked to draw. I began making random sketches and eventually focused on the human body. I broke down each body part and learned about the human anatomy and am currently working to improve my visual concept of the human head. Not wanting to limit myself to only what I conceived, I began to read up on architectural journals and articles. I cut out articles from the newspaper that interested me and also purchased a few copies of Architectural Digest to keep updated with the latest news.

All the articles about new and modern buildings encouraged me to experience it myself. I visited the R.O.M. on opening night and then a second time to observe the building during daytime. The sheer monumentality and boldness of the building left me intrigued to experience more, which led me to take a visit to the Toronto Botanical Garden and later on the Sharp Centre for Design. All of these buildings left me a positive yet mixed feeling, and before I conclude on any of these buildings, I plan to visit the latest upcoming building designed by international talent Frank Gehry, the Art Gallery of Ontario.

After watching the documentary “Manufactured Landscapes” by Edward Burtynsky, it made me realize there are many facets of architecture that I could still potentially explore. My current ongoing research is on sustainable design and the choice was very much influenced by the documentary, which had me awed at some points at the level of destruction that we humans are capable of. Enclosed in this binder is a compilation of my research materials and analysis in progress. Though nowhere near completion and filled with holes, I hope to use it as my source of inspiration and reflection. I plan to add to it on a continual basis to assist me in learning more about architecture.

I looked at my progress thus far and decided I had to draw a line and place a point somewhere to give me direction in my life. I took time to clear my mind of all external thoughts and stabilized my emotions by relaxing and going out to reconnect with my friends and family. That was when I hit the peak of my self-realization. I thought over everything carefully and clearly with a rational mind. I mapped out my journey of the past year in my head and re-examined each possible alternatives. I know who I am, where I am, and what I want to do. I am determined and confident that I will not make the same mistake. I sincerely wish to continue my studies here and hope that you can give me a chance to prove myself.

Sincerely,

Carlo Ly

Internet or Girl

Got this idea from Mike he did something similar and posted on on xanga awhile back.

Carlo! says:
mike
mikey says:
yo
Carlo! says:
You're in a small island all by yourself with a small house/hut to live in, there's food, and sun powered electricity generator/storage. There's no possible way to get help from the outside world, no possible way to escape, if you build a raft or anything, it automatically catches on fire. You possess no craftmanship skills, and is not MacGyver.
Carlo! says:
You can either choose to have an always upgraded top of the line computer with internet access and the latest games. Or you can choose to have the girl of your dreams.

Pick one.
mikey says:
computer

Carlo! says:
yo billy
Billy - breakin in a new pair^^ | who wants to go to a wine & cheese convention? says:
sup
Carlo! says:
You're in a small island all by yourself with a small house/hut to live in, there's food, and sun powered electricity generator/storage. There's no possible way to get help from the outside world, no possible way to escape, if you build a raft or anything, it automatically catches on fire. You possess no craftmanship skills, and is not MacGyver.

Carlo! says:
You can either choose to have an always upgraded top of the line computer with internet access and the latest games. Or you can choose to have the girl of your dreams.

Pick one.
Billy - breakin in a new pair^^ | who wants to go to a wine & cheese convention? says:
girl of my dream
Billy - breakin in a new pair^^ | who wants to go to a wine & cheese convention? says:
u know wat fuk that i want a internet
Billy - breakin in a new pair^^ | who wants to go to a wine & cheese convention? says:
the*
Carlo! says:
YOU WIN ONE FREE AN INTERNET
Billy - breakin in a new pair^^ | who wants to go to a wine & cheese convention? says:
wtf?




Carlo! says:
You're in a small island all by yourself with a small house/hut to live in, there's food, and sun powered electricity generator/storage. There's no possible way to communicate with the outside world, no possible way to escape, if you build a raft or anything, it automatically catches on fire. You possess no craftmanship skills, and is not MacGyver.


Carlo! says:
You can either choose to have an always upgraded top of the line computer with internet access and the latest games. Or you can choose to have the girl of your dreams.

Pick one.
Colin Rock Solid says:
woah
Colin Rock Solid says:
thats a fucking impossible question
Carlo! says:
ahahaha
Colin Rock Solid says:
what would you choose ?
Carlo! says:
computer
Colin Rock Solid says:
hahaha
Carlo! says:
YOU/
Colin Rock Solid says:
I dont even know mannnn
Colin Rock Solid says:
probably the computer too though
Carlo! says:
i'll just fuck some animals if i get too horny
Colin Rock Solid says:
its the thought of mmos that did me in
Colin Rock Solid says:
Id be bored with the girl of my dreams
Colin Rock Solid says:
but not with the comp
Colin Rock Solid says:
Id live a fullfilled life still haha

EUG yooo
Carlo! says:
You're in a small island all by yourself with a small house/hut to live in, there's food, and sun powered electricity generator/storage. There's no possible way to get help from the outside world, no possible way to escape, if you build a raft or anything, it automatically catches on fire. You possess no craftmanship skills, and is not MacGyver.
Carlo! says:
You can either choose to have an always upgraded top of the line computer with internet access and the latest games. Or you can choose to have the girl of your dreams.

Pick one.
EUG internet la
EUG haha
Carlo! says:
goddamn fobs
EUG LOL
EUG hahaha

Carlo! says:
tracy
. peekachuzz is broke [3/24 roll-up] [lollygag] says:
what up
Carlo! says:
You're in a small island all by yourself with a small house/hut to live in, there's food, and sun powered electricity generator/storage. There's no possible way to get help from the outside world, no possible way to escape, if you build a raft or anything, it automatically catches on fire. You possess no craftmanship skills, and is not MacGyver.
Carlo! says:
You can either choose to have an always upgraded top of the line computer with internet access and the latest games. Or you can choose to have the guy of your dreams.

Pick one.
. peekachuzz is broke [3/24 roll-up] [lollygag] says:
is that...for school
. peekachuzz is broke [3/24 roll-up] [lollygag] says:
haha
. peekachuzz is broke [3/24 roll-up] [lollygag] says:
am i gona try to escape and leave the island
. peekachuzz is broke [3/24 roll-up] [lollygag] says:
like internet ..so like i can go on msn?
. peekachuzz is broke [3/24 roll-up] [lollygag] says:
haha


GlenN ~ Life is Good!! || p90 p6 || Decided not to just let it go with the flow~ says:
yo
Carlo! says:
You're in a small island all by yourself with a small house/hut to live in, there's food, and sun powered electricity generator/storage. There's no possible way to get help from the outside world, no possible way to escape, if you build a raft or anything, it automatically catches on fire. You possess no craftmanship skills, and is not MacGyver.
Carlo! says:
You can either choose to have an always upgraded top of the line computer with internet access and the latest games. Or you can choose to have the girl of your dreams.

Pick one.
GlenN ~ Life is Good!! || p90 p6 || Decided not to just let it go with the flow~ says:
girl
GlenN ~ Life is Good!! || p90 p6 || Decided not to just let it go with the flow~ says:
I wouldn't care much for a computer in that situationh
GlenN ~ Life is Good!! || p90 p6 || Decided not to just let it go with the flow~ says:
Can I have a guitar?
Carlo! says:
DING DING DING WE HAVE A WINNRAR
GlenN ~ Life is Good!! || p90 p6 || Decided not to just let it go with the flow~ says:
if I have a guitar, AND the girl that'd be ideal
GlenN ~ Life is Good!! || p90 p6 || Decided not to just let it go with the flow~ says:
LOL
GlenN ~ Life is Good!! || p90 p6 || Decided not to just let it go with the flow~ says:
what's this anyways?
GlenN ~ Life is Good!! || p90 p6 || Decided not to just let it go with the flow~ says:
and what did i iwn?
Carlo! says:
a free sess
Carlo! says:
LOL
GlenN ~ Life is Good!! || p90 p6 || Decided not to just let it go with the flow~ says:
LOOL
GlenN ~ Life is Good!! || p90 p6 || Decided not to just let it go with the flow~ says:
was there any purpose to that question?
GlenN ~ Life is Good!! || p90 p6 || Decided not to just let it go with the flow~ says:
there's no like,
GlenN ~ Life is Good!! || p90 p6 || Decided not to just let it go with the flow~ says:
"insight" to my personailty or something
GlenN ~ Life is Good!! || p90 p6 || Decided not to just let it go with the flow~ says:
xP?
Carlo! says:
well normally i'd charge for a personality reading but i'll give you a free one this time
GlenN ~ Life is Good!! || p90 p6 || Decided not to just let it go with the flow~ says:
right....
GlenN ~ Life is Good!! || p90 p6 || Decided not to just let it go with the flow~ says:
this IS carlo right?
Carlo! says:
you picked the girl so it means your a horny bastard, on top of that you want a guitar too which means you have some WIERD FETISH
GlenN ~ Life is Good!! || p90 p6 || Decided not to just let it go with the flow~ says:
ding ding
GlenN ~ Life is Good!! || p90 p6 || Decided not to just let it go with the flow~ says:
ding mothanukkkka
GlenN ~ Life is Good!! || p90 p6 || Decided not to just let it go with the flow~ says:
xD
GlenN ~ Life is Good!! || p90 p6 || Decided not to just let it go with the flow~ says:
LoL I pity the guy who would pick the computer
Carlo! says:
LOL I DIED
Carlo! says:
*Did
GlenN ~ Life is Good!! || p90 p6 || Decided not to just let it go with the flow~ says:
that would be terrible....living all alone for eternity
GlenN ~ Life is Good!! || p90 p6 || Decided not to just let it go with the flow~ says:
DUUDE you're stuck on an island, what can u do with a computer, I'd go try and plant / find some herb, explore, and as long as I have music in some form, I'm good for live
GlenN ~ Life is Good!! || p90 p6 || Decided not to just let it go with the flow~ says:
good for life * xP!!! hahha
Carlo! says:
lol plant some herb
GlenN ~ Life is Good!! || p90 p6 || Decided not to just let it go with the flow~ says:
lol yeeye~! I'll have my own, outdoor hydroponics going down!!!

Customize Desktop

Been playing around with my desktop after I upgraded my motherboard and discovered theres a LOT of customizing that can be done. Spent 3 days transforming my desktop and only at the tip of things, but really happy with what I have at the moment.
The easy way to do it is to get Windows Blinds and pick and download a skin,apply and done.
Here's a screenshot of my current desktop:


Used a program called LiteStep that replaced the Explorer shell with a lighter and simpler shell that is open source and fully customizable.
Components:
Visual Style(window box,scroll bars) is Elfin2 by Max
Litestep theme (taskbar, startmenu, right-click menu) is SEO by poma
Wallpaper is zxc by Tab
Cursor is Black Ops by AerosolFun

Selling Online

Sold my old PC today for $80 to a person off of kijiji. Wasn't going to do anything with it anyway just sitting in the basement. The girl I sold the PC to had a 'tech guy' friend of hers call me up an hour later telling me the PC won't start and that he checked everything and thinks its the powersupply.

Sounded like he knew what he was talking about cause I had recently replaced the PSU as the old one burnt out. Still, it was working the last time I checked. While on the phone I started troubleshooting what could possible go wrong and isolated 2 possibilities: either the PSU wasn't installed correctly or the power button in the front was popped loose inside its housing therefore jamming it. So I asked him to open up the tower and check the cabling - everything seemed fine. Then I asked him if the power button was clicking properly - he said 'yeah I'm clicking it'.

At this point I can't help but to think about whats running through their minds - that they got scammed big time. Eager to waive that from their minds I told them I'd have to take it back and look at it myself and return the money. The guy offers to come to my house (he lived pretty far and I was glooming over the drive to meet up again) so I told him to come to my house.

He shows up I take the computer apart - everything seems fine. I look at the front AND THE DAMN POWER BUTTON IS STUCK IN - he laughs it off. Oh well. I tape the back with some MASKING TAPE AHAHAHAHAHAHAHA (he suggested it), give him a cracked version of Windows XP on cd while he admires my sick computer setup and then send him off.

All in all an interesting experience. The PC was my third item sold on kijiji you can put anything up on the classifieds although electronics sell the fastest.

Also, thanks to BABY for the new monitor - best gift I've had in awhile. Donation credits also to my brother and sister CAM and COLINA. Typing my lab report in Word in widescreen thought I'd never say I enjoy it.

Pic Unrelated

Work excuses

Heres the situation, on Sunday I had work but didn't know what time I was starting. It was either at 12 noon or 10am and if it was 10am it meant I was opening, meaning having to boil the green/red tea, make milk tea, coffee etc. Called in on Saturday night around 11pm but no one answered. On Saturdays they're supposed to close at 1am.

So I had a dilemma, what time should I go in to work tomorrow? I decided to take the risk of going in at 12 just because I wanted more sleep but I prepared an excuse in advance just in case I was supposed to start at 10. As it so happens, that night was when you adjusted your clock an hour forward for daylight savings.

10:40 I get a call
"hello?"
"hi its sherry, did you know you're supposed to be opening today?"
"yup"
"oh ... did you change your clock an hour ahead?"
"ohhhhh it was last night?"
"yes"
"oh so sorry I'll come to work right now"
"okay see you there"

....and that was it ;p

Whats your best work excuse?